I can’t help but thinking something is just . . .off

I’ve been dating this really great guy but there’s just not been a romantic spark for me and I don’t know why.

What’s even more strange is that I saw a picture of my ex, that I’ve been separated from for well over five years at this point and a flood of complex emotions resurfaced. I was hurt, but still there was something there.

Am I afraid of finding someone new because he might hurt me like my ex did?

Will I ever find someone that I’ll create a bond with and share my future with?

I’m not thinking it’ll be some magical dream romance, but damn if it isn’t at least something I can form with someone I’m attracted to, that I can relate to, that I can form an attachment with.

So far not a great week all told, hopefully something shifts and things start looking up